Wednesday, July 15, 2020

Does he know a mother's heart?




I am your mother,
Oh! I love you so...

I can see you so clearly
Oh! I know you so..
The dreams in your eyes,
Ah, the glint and the glow..
The passing anger on your face,
Oh, the crank in your brow
The upturn of your lips as you smile,
The sweet love that you show
The surge of excitement even when 
You see the same trick thrice in a row
I'm always nagging, always scolding, always shouting.
I know it doesn't really show
I guess I try too hard to protect you
From the harshness of the winds or the snow
I love you so much
But how will you ever know

I am a parent,
I can't even describe the pleasure I feel as I see you grow 
I m a parent, I shall forever say 'I told you so'..

I want to be around 
All through your highs and lows
I know your battles are yours to fight
Your pace is only yours, fast or slow..
It's your life, your goals, your aspirations,

My prayer simply is, become the person I know... 

I am your mother
I love you so..

Murder she wrote!


Death of a Tree
Its been too long that I ve put my pen to paper or my fingers to my keypad. So well, here goes... why today? I muse... and i realise that everyday as i drive to work, i witness murder... i still don’t know why i reacted today.... i have been seeing it everyday... in different forms though.

Incident 1
Every summer, i see branches of huge trees being chopped off. It is the routine I think. The tree is being readied for the monsoons. It will flower better, it will bear more fruit, it will broaden its canopy, it will rise higher. I look at the person wielding the axe. He looks like a surgeon who will prune and enhance the bounties of the tree. I look closer and to my horror realise that the surgeon is in fact a butcher. He doesn’t prune, he hacks and hews. He doesn’t nip, he lops it off. The mighty tree is now dwarfed, and so it will stay. Every summer, we will appoint a butcher, not a gardener. Every monsoon, the indomitable spirit of the tree will try to flower and bear fruit and rise. But every summer, we will hack it back. At the end of ten odd years, we will finally decide that since the once magnificent mango tree is now an ugly stump, it encumbers my driveway, obstructs my wires and cables and blocks my view.
Let it Go!

Incident 2
The swarthy Neem is a brawny 50 year old, nearly 30 feet high with a lush canopy. The wizened old geezer with his strong, black trunk, delicate, luminous, green leaves, emanates the rare splendour of age and grace. He stands with nonchalant pride, right outside Mr. D’s main gate. Mr. D is a diminutive professor of zoology in the most prestigious girls college in the city. Everyday, the studious professor wakes up to the chirping of the birds housed in the swarthy Neem, plucks a twig of the most tender of leaves to chew on for ancient wisdom deems it healthy.
Professor D’s house is a simple two storied affair that he has lived in since birth. His father had built it nearly 60 yrs ago, when the city was still a town. The studious Mr. D reminisces with tenderness at how he added the first floor with the permission of his late father, how he and the Mrs. started their marital journey in the then modern precincts of their middle class haven.
Thirty five years of their life together, the swarthy Neem was always a part of it. The plastic buntings used as decorations for Junior D’s birthdays, the star shaped lantern for each diwali, the shamiana for Junior D’s wedding celebrations, the rope for the moneyplant creeper, the modern string lights for the naming ceremony of Junior’s daughter, the swarthy Neem has held it all together with his strong black branches. He has experienced each joy, witnessed all sorrow, shielded the house from the harsh, dry summer, the heavy rains, always been there for Mr. D and his family.
The family and the tree thrived in each other’s company. Always hand in glove, the house and the tree were known because of each other. The white house with the neem outside its gate, the tall neem tree in fornt of Mr. D’s house, was how each was known in that part of town.
It rained last night, first of the pre monsoons. The sheen on the tar road, ahh...the petrichor, the incandescent new green foliage, the entire city has been washed clean.
On my way to work, i am asked to take a detour, i wonder why? I crane my neck to see busy men and their busier lackeys, each carrying an axe or a rope. I stop a few meters ahead. To my horror, I realise, the swarthy Neem has been brought down. The wood cutters and their men are hacking the dark, proud bark into small pieces, easier to carry maybe. The eyes wandered to where he stood till last night.
Nothing, just a stump, and staring vacuously at the stump, from behind his gate, is Mr. D.
The house is suddenly bare and lies exposed, as if someone has cruelly snatched away its comforter.
Mr. D looks helpless; his vacant eyes cannot understand the sudden emptiness thrust upon him and his house. His friend is no more.
They took him away! The swarthy Neem is gone!